Finding gratitude when my heart is aching...
I am slowly starting to consider to accept that Bill may be gone for good... It's hard. Really hard. I know that I am going to get through this. I've been through worse, way worse. I know that. It's just been a LONG time since I ever considered forever with a man, and I really thought I found the one . I'm still not sleeping well. But I'll get there, I know that. It's Spring Break time for Shelby. She's going with my mom for a mani-pedi tomorrow (I am so jealous!). I'm taking Wednesday through Friday off. My six month scans are this weekend. Hopefully we'll have nice weather so we (me, Shelby & her friend Allie) can have a good time in Chicago after my loooooong MRI & chest x-ray. Oh oh oh, if my results show that I'm NED, that makes FIVE YEARS! Then, I'll only have to go once a year... I can handle that. Much easier than cancer, that's for sure! Okay, I'm going to work on finding things to be grateful...