Um, can I get a re-write???

Hi :) How are you? I'm doing better than I could've ever imagined!  So good, it's kind of scary, but I'm walking through my fear!! I've met someone special.  I mean VERY special!  His name is Bill.  I'd post a picture of us, but I'll ask his permission first.  Not that I think he'd mind.  He is AMAZING!  Yeah, I know I sound like a school girl.  Too bad.  Deal with it people!  I've always heard people say "you know when you know".  Well, I know !  I know that some of my friends are concerned, because they  love me.  Only time will show them what I already know.  I'm near tears just writing this.  He makes me so happy!  When he's not here, I miss him.  Not a "oh my God, I wonder where he is or what he's doing" miss him, silly people.  A something is missing miss him, as in life is just that much better when he is around miss him.  Shelby & I spent Christmas with his family & i...

So, yeah, I've been single for a LONG time.  Not intentionally.  There were extenuating circumstances (I was scared of Shelby's father) that prevented me from even trying really.  Things have changed.  No he hasn't changed.  I have. I am now ready to test the waters.  I know that I am worthy of being loved.  For some that's a "given", for me, eh not really.  Yeah, we all have issues/baggage.  Mine was pretty heavy for a long time.  Now that I've lost FIFTY POUNDS (woo hoo!) I'm starting to feel better about my appearance (I didn't say my issues were all gone - LOL). I've been thinking about what kind of man I think I would like to spend time with.  Tell me if I'm expecting too much: Kind Compassionate Believes in a higher power Loving Affectionate Patient FUNNY (I can't believe I forgot to include this originally!) Taller than me (I'm 5'2") Under 50, unless he's super hot, then maybe I could be convinced ;o...

Today was a long day, but I have so much to be grateful for! Shelby (duh!) My awesome job and wonderful boss & co-workers! Wonderful friends! Email The beautiful colors of autumn I made it to my first small group on Monday - woo hoooo! Determination Laughter Indoor plumbing Taking steps to a healther, happer MB (MB 2.0?) Hearing that the bariatric center is submitting all my paperwork to the insurance company by tomorrow!  I was told to check back in with them on 10/30 if I haven't heard from them before then. I was able to bite my tongue today (when I really wanted to let "them" have it!) I could go on, but I'm trying to get to bed early enough so that I can take my sleep-aid so I can try to get more than 3 hours sleep tonight. Love and blessings to you all! Nighty night!