Um, can I get a re-write???

It sure is AND I am officially the mother of a teenager now!  YIKES!!!!! There is reall nothing to talk about... No really, not much.  So, I'll share some gratitude with you! FIVE EFFING YEARS CANCER FREE BABY!!!! Shelby Wilbur Coco My amazing friends (I love you SO very much!) Sunshine (I miss you so!) Generic Zyrtec! My job (and fantastic boss who knows nothing about this blog) Surviving over a month in the same house as a teenage girl Being able to keep on going! Speaking of going... I have dipped my toe back into the dating waters. No date(s) yet, but thinking about it. Okay, there is one thing that I would LOVE to talk (brag) about, but I can't.  All I can say is that my kid is the AWESOMEST kid and friend ever!  I'm  hoping that I will be able to elaborate sometime in the future.  But, until then, I am so proud that my daughter is BRAVE and stood up for others who couldn't stand up for themselves.  My kid's got cajones!  woot...

I am slowly starting to consider to accept that Bill may be gone for good... It's hard.  Really hard.  I know that I am going to get through this.  I've been through worse, way worse.  I know that.  It's just been a LONG time since I ever considered forever with a man, and I really thought I found the one . I'm still not sleeping well.  But I'll get there, I know that. It's Spring Break time for Shelby.  She's going with my mom for a mani-pedi tomorrow (I am so jealous!).  I'm taking Wednesday through Friday off.  My six month scans are this weekend.  Hopefully we'll have nice weather so we (me, Shelby & her friend Allie) can have a good time in Chicago after my loooooong MRI & chest x-ray.  Oh oh oh, if my results show that I'm NED, that makes FIVE YEARS! Then, I'll only have to go once a year... I can handle that.  Much easier than cancer, that's for sure! Okay, I'm going to work on finding things to be grateful...

Hi :) How are you? I'm doing better than I could've ever imagined!  So good, it's kind of scary, but I'm walking through my fear!! I've met someone special.  I mean VERY special!  His name is Bill.  I'd post a picture of us, but I'll ask his permission first.  Not that I think he'd mind.  He is AMAZING!  Yeah, I know I sound like a school girl.  Too bad.  Deal with it people!  I've always heard people say "you know when you know".  Well, I know !  I know that some of my friends are concerned, because they  love me.  Only time will show them what I already know.  I'm near tears just writing this.  He makes me so happy!  When he's not here, I miss him.  Not a "oh my God, I wonder where he is or what he's doing" miss him, silly people.  A something is missing miss him, as in life is just that much better when he is around miss him.  Shelby & I spent Christmas with his family & i...

Wow, it's been weeks since my last post.  I know, you missed me right? ;o)~ Where to start.... How about I had my six month post-op checkup and was officially down 73 pounds and Dr. Heydari said if I stayed exactly where I'm at, my surgery is a success!  Yay!  Last time I weighed myself, I was down to 142 pounds!  Dr. H and I agree that going below 130, I'd probably look a little silly.  He said I shouldn't change a thing that I'm doing.  I've tried not to. What else... hmmmmm, I have been dating someone.  We'll call him D.  We had originally met months ago on POF and then I met B and told him that I was going to focus on B, only for B to freak out and say I was too good (whatever!) So, then there were a few  men that I was chatting with, and D came back into the picture.  He was so sweet and I could imagine him adoring me!  After our first date, he said something like "if you're going to see other men, you're not going to see me...

This afternoon I got a hysterical call from Shelby.  She was in my mom's car & they were in an accident!  Supermom MB kicked into gear and got there as fast as I could.  Everyone is fine, the car, not so much! A friend on Facebook posted a "Glad List" on her page today.  It reminded me that I have so much to be grateful for, including: Shelby Grace - I love her so much! Shelby & my mom were uninjured My most excellent friends (Traci is super-cool) ;o) My awesome job Kindness I'm down 58.8 pounds (as of 10:44 tonight!) Things really are looking up! Taking a fun hike yesterday with Shelby & Wilbur Trying new things The swamp is coming to life - the frogs are singing their songs! Indoor plumbing Laughter Smiles I'm going to close with a few of the pictures I took on our hike yesterday.     Love and blessings to you all!!    

Today, I am grateful for: Shelby My absolutely awesome friends! Wilbur the Wonder Dog Being able to stand up for myself and what I feel is right Being able to walk away when I've had enough The desire to surround myself with kind, loving, compassionate, positive people I have lost 48 pounds (as of 10:30 tonight)!!!!!! Having a conversation with the sperm donor without screaming or yelling. Meeting with my new therapist tomorrow. Waking up without a migraine! Have I mentioned my fantabulous friends???? ;o) Free will Kind people Our home Filling up the (rodent proof) dog food container without spilling half the 40 pound bag of small bites dog food! Being alive! Today Tomorrow Love and blessings to you all!!!!        

Hi Everyone, I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while.  I feel like I've been juggling too much stuff lately! Let's get to the nitty gritty stuff first!  I just jumped on the scale and I weigh 178.2 pounds!  If I use my weight from 4/1/09 of 219.8 pounds (which I will), I am down 41.6 pounds! WOOO HOOOOOOO!  Not to share too much, but it's that time of the month, and I almost didn't weigh myself because I thought I had put on a couple of pounds.  Surprise! This is going to be a short post, but I know that I have been a very bad girl by not posting lately, so I'm going to try to remember what has happened in the last month! LOL The week I went back to work Shelby was REALLY sick.  I allowed her to stay during the day with her dad (see? I'm being nice) and his mom.  The next week, I was sick!  The doctor put me on antibiotics and I stayed home sick Tuesday & Wednesday and kept my germs from the office and worked from home on Thursday....

Hi Everyone. I've been on a clear liquid diet all day today - no food and it is hard!  I have to get through tomorrow and then be at the hospital at 8:30am Tuesday.  I have a hunger headache which stinks, but beside that I am just peachy! Christmas was good.  Shelby has told me several times that this was "the best Christmas ever!"  I like that!  I'm not sure what was different from past years.  Maybe less drama because we stayed away from it?  Who knows! This isn't going to be a long post because (amazingly) I really don't have much to say. I'm ready.  I'm just ready.  Ready to move onto the next phase of my life.  The phase in which I become a healthier happier Mary Beth!  Of course, I am the most important factor in making myself happier, right?  It's going to be a process, but I am READY! If everything goes as planned, I should be home by Wednesday afternoon.  Recuperating in my own bed.  Gratitude tim...

Today is Thanksgiving.  Actually, I just looked at the clock and it seems Thanksgiving was YESTERDAY (oopsy, it's getting late!) We were originally going to go to Chicago to watch the parade, but the weather was miserable.  So, we went to a local restaurant and had our Thanksgiving dinner with a bunch of strangers ;o)  It was nice.  Until I bit my tongue!  Now, I don't just bit my tongue, I BITE my tongue.  And I had already bitten my tongue Friday night, so when i bit my tongue today - it took nearly 90 MINUTES for the bleeding to stop!  I'm telling you, we don't do things half way in our family! LOL!  I think it's fair to say that I really didn't enjoy my meal today.  I think I almost finished a big cup of ice (hoping that would stop the GUSHING BLOOD) and it didn't.  Dag nabbit! I think that I may now know what it feels like when you have your tongue pierced.  EW!  I'm just hoping I don't bite it again... boy oh boy! ...

Hello Friends! Yes, I'm changing the blog layout again. I decided I needed something less PINK!! So, until Traci has time to fix the heading or show me how the heck to edit the heading template, the blog is gonna look a little bit silly. Here comes the rambling!!!! Shelby hit her head on Monday night. According to Shelby, it was all my fault! I'm going to try to explain what happened... Try to stay with me, k? I was in the bathroom combing my hair in front of the mirror. Shelby decided she just had to hang onto me like a monkey (behind me, arms around my neck). Shelby doesn't weigh 30 pounds anymore, she weighs 90 pounds and was hurting my back. I asked several times for her to let go. "No, I will never let go Mommy!" as cute as could be. I bumped her lightly with my rear and she must've let go at that exact moment and she fell backward, but sideways into the tub and smacked her head on the lip of the tub! We do not do anything half way in the O...