Letting go...

Letting go is hard.  Yeah, stating the obvious aren't I?  Well, it is hard dammit!!

I am trying to let go.  I need to let go.  In order to move on (do I want to move on?) I must let go. 

I think I'm scared of allowing myself to be vulnerable again.

I suppose I should work on that.

Today, I am grateful for:
  • Shelby
  • My awesome friends
  • Having a job I love
  • Indoor plumbing
  • School starts next week!
  • Sunshine
  • I walked over 6 miles this week! Woo hooo!

 Coco has a minor tear in her ACL :(
We're trying medicine first and hoping that she doesn't need surgery!!

Shelby & Me today (man I need color LOL!)

Love & blessings my friends!!

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