It's been a while.  
I'm having a hard time, missing people I shouldn't miss, feeling lonely.
Trying to take better care of myself and my Shelby G.

 Saw this on my walk today.

A heart in a tree :)
It gave me a little peace and a bit of hope.

Going to keep taking care of me, Shelby & the pooches and live my life...

Peace, love & blessings my friends!
I love you!

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