My name is Mary Beth. I am a 48-year-old single mom of one. I am madly in love with my child, despite her blatant attempts to drive me crazy!
There are lots of things I would change, re-write, if I could... Others, I would never change!
January 12, 2010
I got a surgery date! January 12, 2010 at 11:30am!
Hello, it's me I was wondering if after all these years you'd
like to meet To go over everything They say that time's supposed to heal ya But I ain't done much healing ~Adele So, it’s been 2 ½ years since my last post. It has been terribly rough, confusing,
overwhelming time with constant worry and anxiety.
Nice thing to say first post in so long, huh? I think it’s going to be easiest to go through the years
(probably not in perfect chronological order)… 2013 Bill never came back and my heart still
hurts. Clearly I was not “the one” for
him. He started dating someone just a few
months after I had asked him to look within to find what he wanted. He’s married now. My heart is still in pieces.Things have always been a little chaotic in our
little family, but this is when things started getting crazy.Shelby had her appendix removed in September
& Knee surgery in November 2014 I dated someone for a short while, totally not
my type. I thought “maybe I need to look
I got paid today, but the money is all gone. I had to pay the sitter yesterday ($120) and the mortgage and then gave $211.27 to ComEd to avoid disconnection on Monday. Tomorrow we go to the dentist. Thank goodness I have a debit card for my flexible spending! The dentist is at least an hour away, so we have plans to go to Red Robin and meet Kim, Joe & Sean there. I have money to buy us lunch, but that's it! Then, there's the shoes I have to buy Shelby because she joined Cross Country & it starts on the 24th! My next paycheck is at the end of the month and by then the car payment will be a month behind as well!
I don't like saying this, but WHY ME??????? Why is it that the sperm donor can get away with living with his mother at 40, falling behind over $6,000 in support and still have money to freaking drink & smoke his life away? I'm tired of the bad stuff happening. I'm TIRED of people around me, who treat me and my child like shit, wh…
Ahhhhh, I really feel like I never get time to just decompress. There's always something going on!
Before I go to bed, I want to point out some of the good stuff from this week. ShelbyMy freaking AWESOME friends!My jobFinally going to church and enjoying myself!Having a really nice meal with friends who I haven't spent time with in a long time.Shelby saying "okay" several times when, in the past, she would not have been so "go with the flow". My baby is growing up!Going to Sam's Club to stock up on the important stuff. I have no money now, but won't need to worry about restocking for many months now!Being able to take Shelby to Target and use a gift card to make a big dent in buying new school clothes for Shelby (think pink, green & plaid!) Thank you Mr. King! LaughterHugs & kisses from my sweet ShelbyMaking up my "list of work to do on the house" - and some of it just might get done!Being alive!Love & sweet dreams.xo mb :)